i know its hard to imagine for some but jackie newcombs poem is so right even though most cant see them or hear them or feel our loved ones trust me when i say that they are with us everyday they see our pain and just want to comfort us they see our tears and want to wipe them away for us they so much want us to know they are ok and in a far better place where the glow of peace surrounds them i wish i could share my gift with each and everyone of you i wish i could show you all your lovely loved ones and i wish all of you could see hear and communicate with spirit as i do but i am sure that its within each and everyone of us all it takes is belief and a open heart for you to see and hear everything  it truly is wonderful ..... god bless xx

M STILL HERE

I READ THIS BEAUTIFUL POEM BY JACKIE NEWCOMB TODAY IT BROUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES BECAUSE ITS SO RIGHT HOPE IT BRINGS COMFORT XXXX
I SAW YOU STANDING AT MY GRAVE 
BUT IM STILL HERE 
I SAW YOU TURN AND SAY GOODBYE YOU WAVED
BUT IM STILL HERE
I HEARD YOU CALL MY NAME AS YOU SLEPT LAST NIGHT
BUT IM STILL HERE
I FELT YOUR PAIN AND FEAR AND FRIGHT
BUT IM STILL HERE
I HEARD YOU WONDER HOW YOU'D COPE ALONE
BUT IM STILL HERE
I HEARD YOU SOB I HEARD YOU MOAN
BUT IM STILL HERE
I SAW AS YOU HELD YOU HEAD IN YOUR HANDS
WITH THE WORLD STILL FULL OF YOUR TIME'S DEMANDS
BUT IM STILL HERE
I HELD YOU IN MY ARMS TODAY
IM STILL HERE
I FELT YOUR RESPONSE BECAUSE YOU KNEW THERE WAS A WAY
IM STILL HERE 
I KNOW YOU FELT MY HAND AS IT BRUSHED AGAINST YOUR CHEEK
I HAVEN'T LEFT YOUR SIDE I HAVE BEEN HERE ALL WEEK
IM STILL HERE
I HAVE A NEW HOME WHERE I NOW RESIDE
BUT IM STILL HERE
LOVE IS STILL THE SAME "FROM THE OTHER SIDE"
AND IM STILL HERE
FROM TIME TO TIME I'LL POP IN AND SAY HELLO
I'M REALLY SORRY I HAD TO GO
BUT IM STILL HERE 
ITS MY GREATEST WISH THAT YOU LIVE EACH DAY
KNOWING IM STILL HERE
LIFE MUST CARRY ON AND I KNOW YOU'LL FIND A WAY
KNOWING IM STILL HERE
I PROMISE ONE DAY THERE 'LL BE AN EASE TO YOUR PAIN
AND I WANT YOU TO BEGIN TO LIVE YOUR LIFE AGAIN
KNOWING IM STILL HERE
YOU STILL HAVE SO MUCH MORE OF YOUR LIFE TO LIVE
BUT IM STILL HERE 

YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL HAS A LOT TO GIVE
AND IM STILL HERE
LOTS MORE DANCING,SINGING AND FUN
PARTIES TO ATTEND AND THINGS TO BE DONE
AND REMEMBER...
........ IM STILL HERE
XXXXXXXXXXX

R.I.P BABY CHARLIE BEARDS

Today is a very sad day little baby charlie beards lost his fight for life for those of you who have read my blog you would have seen my posts about  how charlie was a little 2 year old boy who has fought a long hard battle most of his little life against cancer today a little earth angel has become a little spirit angel he is now pain free at peace and free to play jump and run with all the other spirit angels a child that touched so many people and has left an imprint on there hearts . I am asking all you lovely people to send healing and prayers to charlies mommy daddy family and loved ones through charlie and cords 4 life so many others have been helped god bless you charlie little angel xxxxxx

Do i sh

Well today i was out shopping doing my normal life i was standing outside a supermarket waiting for my hubby to park a car when i overheard a conversation between to ladies the one lady asked the other how her mother was doing the other lady replied that she was doing ok but was finding it hard as she had been married for 45 years and was missing him as she said this a man appeared right at the side of me and said tell her i am ok tell her jerry is ok i turned and looked at him and shrugged my shoulders i think he understood because he smiled at me and vanished  you see i really could not go up to this women someone i had never met and give her this message why i can hear you asking well first of all say for some strange reason this man was not for her and i had got it wrong would she think i had been listening to her conversation and was being cruel and then also say it was for her she was getting on with her everyday life and a random stranger walks up and says you dad is ok jerry is ok how would she react to that then thirdly i suppose its my own fear that stops me is she going to rant and rave be nasty shout that i am a weirdo all these things go through my mind when i do readings for people i know that they have chose to come and see me i am not forcing my spirituality on to them and they want to hear the messages there loved ones have for them so as much as i would love to pass on all the messages lovely spirit want me to no matter where i am sometimes i just cant i have to look at the whole picture am i right or am i wrong who knows i only ever try to do what i feel is right .......godbless

Getting back

Well after a break which i do quite often i am back to my reading i have had a few this week and i must say spirit have been very kind to me and gave me good validations for there loved  ones . I do find that after i have stopped working for a few weeks i am always nervous about starting again when i am not working spirit of course still come round me and if i try to switch off they will do things to grab my attention like hiding things i need and when i ask for them to return them they do turn up in the weirdest places of course i don't mind i know it is there way of trying to say hello we are still here you know .My new year has started off quite hectic and i am sort of playing catch up with myself but that is what life throws at us sometimes and we have to adjust to that like i always say i am a medium but also i am a person a mom a grandmom and a wife its just a a small part of who i am and sometimes it just has to take a small part of my other busy life   and i know that spirit understand that we always have to have a balance  in everything we do . Well hopefully things will settle down and i can get back to telling you all about what i have learnt as i have grown on my spiritual journey .......... god bless

TO DORIS

i am glad you have found someone who has helped you spiritually there are many fakes as you put it but you will be led to the right one i am glad you have found that person ......... god bless

who's spiritual

Hi everybody I'm often asked the questions who's spiritual or how do you know if you are spiritual mmmmmm let me see well by now you should know my beliefs and that i believe we all have the spiritual core within us but i suppose that some rather than others find that they feel it a lot deeper being spiritual can mean so many things to so many people it depends what they believe in who there gods are what they religion is being or feeling spiritual i think its a very personal thing . My own definition on being spiritual for me means many things and shapes me as a person i believe i myself feel that being spiritual and being in touch with my own spirituality helps me cope with everyday life and every day problems it helps me grow as a person it helps me with understanding of others it helps me stay calm and relaxed it also helps me to try and find the good in most things and understand there might be reasons later on why i cant see the good at that time . Being spiritual is not all about being a medium in fact being a medium is a very small part of my spirituality it is a gift i have been blessed with and I'm am very happy to have it but its not the be all in my life i will sometimes be a working medium for months on end then i will take a break and not work as a medium for the same length of time i do not and have never made it my career in life and it does not become the main thing in my life but it is part of me and who i am the same as all the ailments of have in my life( believe me i have so many i wont bore you all with the details ) but again even though my ill health at times is part of my life it doesn't become my life i am more than that . I believe spirituality becomes who you are and i always refer to it like a tree growing we start of as a small sap and as we learn and feed from our spirituality we grow and have many branches coming of us but they all lead back to the roots of what we are, we are always learning and we are always growing and like the trees that feed and help our earth i hope my spiritual self feeds and helps others ...........god bless

Following your pat

Well hello everyone i have had a funny old couple of weeks and now I'm left with a conflicting  thoughts and decisions and i have to make them soon .There are points in our life when we come to crossroads and different paths and we find ourselves at the junction not sure which path to take do we go the safe path where we can continue on our long steady walk through life where we feel safe and have no fears or do we go down the windy path where we know there are going to be a lot of twists and turns where we have fear of what might happen where we are sometimes opening ourselves up to maybe pain and hurt even danger its a hard decisions to make a whole part of  you so wants to walk no run down that straight safe path yet the other part of you wants to go down the windy path as you know sometimes we have to face the fears and even maybe the danger as you will always be wandering what ifs all the time , so here i go off down the windy path i don't know where it is going to lead me or where i will end up but in my heart i know its where i am meant to go its my path whether it be to learn another life lesson or whether it will be good or bad but one thing i do know it will be part of my journey so i am asking all my spiritual guides all my angels or my loved ones in spirit world to keep me protected and safe to help me on this path and to guide me to the right place to keep me safe from all things evil and bad to help me continue the fight of goodness ......... godbless

The sad loss

This week has seen the loss of someone i knew and for those closest to her i have to watch the pain and grief they are going through and i know nothing i say or do can ease that grief i often say and truly believe it is harder for those loved ones here on earth than for the loved ones that have pasted ,its even harder for those who lose there moms because for a lot of us our moms are not only our moms but our best friends to, they leave a huge gap in our lives that no matter what we know it will never be filled again .I  really do not know why some people leave our earth earlier than what we think they should why these good people seem to suffer pain and illness making there last days on earth uncomfortable and hard to see and i don't know why some seem to suffer more than others what i do know well what i believe is as soon as they leave this mortal earth there pain has eased sometimes even before they go they will have been healed when people say they looked and sounded better than they had done in months just before they died that's because the healing process had already begun i believe that they see there loved ones who have come to fetch them and they lose the fear and find a peace but i do know from experience its always our loved ones who have passed who are worried about us here left on earth there messages are most the time please tell them i am ok and no longer have any pain nor am i unhappy they always want there loved ones here to move on and let them go because they are content and happy to be where they are no matter what the circumstances was when they left .I myself have been totally disabled with grief  from loosing my loved ones and i know no matter what anyone said to me that grief wouldn't ease so of course its hard for me to watch people i know and love suffer so much pain in there grief but i know they will heal and laugh again and they will do this with the help and the love and the guidance from there loved ones that have passed and even though they cant see them or touch them they will be there  by there sides wrapping there arms around them brushing away the tears and loving them like they always did when they were here ........... Dedicated to the lovely lady we lost this week .......... god bless