Thursday, 31 October 2013


Someone close to me was telling me today that since he has left the house which was his home for over 25 years things have been on the up , he is the biggest sceptic i know but never dismisses my beliefs i have been to this house many times and always sensed the bad energy in it now when i say the bad energy i don't mean spirit even though he did have spirit in there they were not bad i mean the house it was drenched in bad negative energy so when he told me things were on the up since moving i was not surprised , he said to me you always said the house had bad energy yet i had brought my children up there and considered it to be a happy home it was i said but the house itself was a sucker house  how so he asked , well before you moved into that home it was a GP surgery and had been for many many years then converted back to a home when you moved in therefore it built up a lot of negative energy every person who went to that doctors more than likely went in there with negative thoughts apart from the odd few everybody who sat there and waited seen the Doctor was probably not in the best of places think of a doctor and how much he saw felt and absorbed through all them years the building did the same it sucked in all the negativity the essence was there plus all the residual energy now if you think about that and know about that you can do things to change it but if you don't then eventually all that negativity will start to affect you and your domain and negativity thrives on negativity its like when we go out with a bunch of people we may be all positive and happy and fun but if the group of people we are with are down in the dumps everything they say has a negative aspect to it if we stay there long enough we soon become the same they have sucked away all our positive energy and we leave feeling miserable and down then something happens to make us feel worse and so on and so on like a snowball effect the same with buildings if we don't acknowledge the negativity that has been left there in the end it will suck all the positive energy from us and that's when things go wrong the sucker syndrome . So i am glad he has left and i am glad he mentioned it to me and i am glad i could say what i could say and he listened so maybe deep down he may not be such the sceptic he claims he is ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,godbless

Wednesday, 30 October 2013


Hello  everyone sorry i have not  posted on here for a while but as sometimes happens life has overtook me and kept me busy plus i took a little break in the sunshine to rest and reboot . I have not been working much the last month or so i find sometimes i have to give my spiritual life a little break so i can return to my normal life of mom grand mom and wife and sometimes they have to come first ,but this week i have to return to doing my readings as i have clients who bless them have been waiting and i don't like to let them down for long , even though i have not been active in my spiritual work that does not mean that i don't have visits from the spirit world and this week was no exception like i said i have been busy with one thing and another plus had a flu so not really been up to working but during the last few weeks i had a gentleman come to me at the most unexpected moment he told me one of my friends was struggling and i needed to see her i thought about this for a few minutes and decided that if this gentleman had made the effort to come to see me it must be important so i came back to my computer and decided to message her as i was looking for her contact details she messaged me and said would it be ok if she came to see me the next day i knew then my in stints were right and whether she knew it or not spirit world had gave her a little push into contacting me they never cease to surprise me that when they need to say something they will make sure it happens , anyway the next day as planned my friend came down to see me as she walked in the gentleman came in with her but made it known to me that i was not to mention he was there but to let her confide in me and bring it up i asked her if she was ok and told her the message i had the night before and asked her if she was indeed struggling but did not mention that she had the man with her she said she wasn't struggling and couldn't think of anything that was wrong the man stood there shaking his head and i had the feeling that like me he didn't believe her i know my friend she is a good soul with a  huge heart but she carries a hard shell and wont let you in she always wants you to believe that she is fine and strong all of the time , we had our tea and chats we laughed and did all the usual things we do when we have a catch up after a few hours she got up to leave as she was heading for the door the man said to me don't let her go so again i asked her are you sure you are not struggling with anything she stopped and asked me who i had with me i looked at the gentleman and he nodded so i told her i had a man with me after chatting with her for a bit and getting validation to who this man was it became clear why spirit had wanted me to see her she had lost someone very close to her and being the person she is she was using her own coping mechanism to cope with this loss she is a strong lady who feels she has to be strong for everyone else she has a hard shell with a very soft centre and needs to portray to everyone that she is ok rather than worry anyone to cope with her loss the only way she could deal with it was simply trying to not think about him to try and shut him away my own theory to this was that if she didn't think about him she could still somehow try and believe he had not gone but the power of spirit is strong and the gentleman could feel her suffering thus bringing him closer to her he knew she was shutting him out he also knew the reason why so even though he wanted to help her he didn't want to get so close that she could feel him or give her any signs he knew she had to come to terms with him going to let him go spirit world is a special place and he was happy that he was there and he wanted her to know that he was happy hence me being brought in, she told me she was unable to feel him or sense him i try to explain the reasons for this and told her what he was saying i am in no doubt that when she finally excepts his passing and can think of him freely and remember him with smiles and not tears he in turn will let her know he is around just because we cant see them doesn't mean they are not there and he will do what he had tried to do for her here on earth and that is protect her and when he knows she has finally let him go that is when he will feel safe to return and i know one day soon i hope she will tell me this ................ godbless
Evening everyone you should try and have a read of sally morgans article in The Sun newspaper  today i agree with all that she says about every subject but two in particular that we all have physic ability and mediums ethics sally has been through the mill herself and has suffered setbacks and judgements against her abilty and i admit i myself doubted her at one time untill i looked at the bigger picture i have been lucky enough to have been picked out for a message at one of sallys events all i can say is the truth the reading and message she gave to me was 100 per cent spot on and seeing her afterwards all i can say was that to me she appears to be a genuine lovely person and it is good to see her making her way back from a huge knock xx

Saturday, 24 August 2013


Well getting drunk and having a good time is exactly what i did when i was seventeen me and my step-fathers relationship hit what i would call a massive no go area and i was promptly thrown out the family home no one stuck up for me and i was on my own i had a job i had friends and i had a close male friend but no one to look after me and watch out for me most if not all my friends lived at home and seemed to have normal teenage relationships with there parents staying with them was not a option i remember sitting in the local pub that night not knowing where i was going to sleep a friend offered to sneak me in her house after her parents went to sleep but this was not ideal it dawned on me i was homeless i was scared and frightened that i would end up sleeping underneath the motorway bridge something i was not looking forward to , but again i was saved a group of male friends were sharing a one bedroom flat they were all young only a couple of years older than me and this seemed to them like they had found there Independence in reality it was one bedroom flat given to the eldest of the the male friends (there were three of them ) by the local council it had three mattresses in the bed room on the floor there was running water hot and cold but no cooking facility's and a old settee and  two chairs in the living room after finding out from my friend that i had been thrown out of the family home i was offered the settee they were good lads and they had all known me a long time they would not have seen me on the street. So there i was in a one bedroom flat with three males they were all as good as gold and behaved like perfect gentleman but they were all young and like to live life so it was the normal every night after the pubs shut that the flat filled up with people looking to party a lot of them unsavoury to say the least and looking back not the safest place for a young seventeen girl to be but again the three male friends acted like earth angels and went out of there way to protect me one of them even giving up his mattress on the floor so i could get some sleep then sitting in the hall way with his back to the bedroom door making sure that no one came in it was this lad who the day after i moved into the flat volunteered to collect my belongings for me from my home when he returned to the flat he had two black bags containing my stuff he also had tears in his eyes he told me that hr truly believed that when he knocked my front door for my stuff my parents would beside themselves with worry and he would be able to tell them i was safe and bring me straight home what he got was that when he knocked my front door my parents had already packed my stuff into the black bags and handed them over without any questions to how or where i was he told me that this had broke his heart and he didn't know how to tell me i told him not to worry i was used to feeling alone and i knew i would get used to being alone but was i alone know not never i always had my higher beings and my angels and guides looking after me . After about a week of living in the flat i knew this was no place for a women there was a Lot of drinking going on and some drugs i knew it was time i left but where would i go ................god bless

Thursday, 15 August 2013


Hi everyone i can see from my blog that an awful lot of you pop in and have a peek and i want to thank you all for taking the time to have a little look but i would love some more feedback so please leave me a little comment so i don't feel i am talking away to myself i will be really thankful and thank you for stopping by xxxx...........godbless

Sunday, 11 August 2013


Just a small break from the memories of my life to talk about what is my take on being spiritual. I am a medium and i do do readings but there is so much more to being spiritual than that, that  is just a very small part of my spirituality yes i do like to do readings i like to communicate with spirit and to pass on loved ones messages and to communicate with spirit and hopefully bring a little comfort but my own spirituality goes a lot deeper to me than that .It all depends what you believe in i suppose and you have to let your beliefs become part of you and stand by them i have always been called names since i was a child i have been called strange nutcase etc etc so i am the first to admit that when first meeting me i don't go hi my names chance and i talk to spirit or hi my names jan and i believe in all things spiritual not because i am ashamed but like everyone on this mortal earth sometimes i just like a quiet life and also i don't want my family to take stick because of me i am a protector so of course i try to protect.Being spiritual to me is so much more not only do i communicate with spirit i also have my guides and higher spiritual beings that i communicate with i understand this might strange to some people but i have lived with them for so long that to me it is perfectly normal the one thing i have learnt over my lifetimes is that our guides our higher beings and angels are not there to solve all our life problems they can help guide us comfort us and protect us but not solve all our problems the other thing i have learnt over the years is when we block or ignore our spiritual beings it is harder for them to protect us they also need a connection to us to be able to keep there strength with us if like i did i chose to ignore my spirituality in my earlier life we can become more open to negative things taking over its hard for them to be able to guide us help us and protect us if we chose to ignore them so its more easy for negative to renter our life .I don't spend my whole life thinking and talking spirituality i am a mom a wife and a grandmother i like to live in this world and do everything and be with the people this world has to offer but i know that being spiritual is a big part of my life it helps me in all aspects in living in this world it helps me to be compassionate it helps me to listen it helps me to try and see the positive and it helps me to be calm our lives can be busy we can become consumed in life and all the goings on and we can become consumed with ourselves but having spirituality in your life can offer you so much more its a comfort we meet so many people we would not have met before we become more open to what we feel and believe to rather than what we can just see we look at the world with different eyes and we see the lovely signs that they show us and we recognise the lovely earth angels we meet yes being spiritual is so much more ..........god bless


Well here i go again continuing with my teens. As i learnt the only way to get on with things was to become more vocal and learn to stick up for myself the bulling and school eased of i wont bore you with the details but towards the third year of senior school i had found my niche and learnt to fit in up until then i had always done well in my classes but learnt that being a swat was not good for your popularly being a swat and poor was a no go so i decided the only way to fit in was to be funny not funny in a good way a comedian i was not but to play up in class act a bit cheeky and and be disruptive and look like i didn't give a dam, didn't do much for my education but at least i began to fit in by making the other girls laugh so i ambled on that was when i learnt that by wearing a different face and being someone else you could always learn how to adjust to a situation but it meant hiding who you really was . As the years past i got up to all the usual teenager things and more playing truant was a big part of that and having somewhere to go whilst doing this was making it easy we had an older friend who had there own place a group of us would go there and just hang out nothing to bad compared to what we could have done we mainly sat around chatting and smoking to be honest but it was better than school we always intended to go to school we would set off and say we will just drop in and go into school during the break but of course we never did and before we knew it it was 4oclock and we were heading home pretending that we had spent a hard day at school now if we had done this for the odd day we probably would have got away with it but being only school children we never done that so we continued not attending school at all and this went on for about a month of course we all got caught and we all paid the penance .It was around about this time i found another past time boys and even though i could still hear all my spiritual friends it was around about this time i decided to ignore them i was going through a lot at the time and i would say that the years from when i was fifteen upwards was traumatic to say the least and i got lost i found and discovered make-up now to me putting my face o was like putting a mask on and i could become whoever i wanted to be . I never really got on with my step-father well to be truthful that last statement was wildly understated my life at home was pure hell due to my step-father my mom liked to keep the peace so as a sixteen year old i had far to much freedom from my age i think my mom thought it kept the peace if i was not in the house there would be no fighting it would things would get very physical and he would beat me therefore  i think my mom thought if i was out i was protected and it made for a much more peaceful life for her so that's when i discovered boys drinking and parties i never really had a time i had to be in but i found that most of the time i was in at a reasonable hour due to my friends not having as much freedom as me i also had a few boyfriends from the age of fifteen to sixteen one was special he made me laugh he was a Lady's man good looking and charming i had seen through him straight away and even though we fell into a relationship i never wanted to be his girlfriend i never wanted to be tied to anyone i wanted to have a laugh to get drunk not to worry about anything or anybody but to hide from all the sadness that was going on in my life at the time (so much more than i have wrote about here maybe one day i will elaborate but not now ) what he never new and i didn't realise at the time was that even though i had chosen to ignore my spiritual beings they had not left me and they sent along one of my earth angels(many more have followed) to help me i truly believe that if i hadn't met that man at that time i would not have coped with life he never knew it and more than likely never will know but he truly saved me at that time something i have only just realised while i was writing this .............. godbless

Saturday, 27 July 2013


Well in theory my mom was sending to the best school in our area she wanted me to have a good education and like a lot of mothers before her she didn't want me to end up like her, i  was to attend a girls grammar school i started when it was on the cusp of going from grammar to comprehensive and the result off that was like i realised on the first day of school i was way out of my comfort zone . My mom got a school grant for my uniform so off we trudged to the local shop that took school grants i was kitted out in what i needed but it was the bare minimum with no extras the first day of i went with my new uniform and  school bag with a hint of optimism in the start of my new life after sitting in the classroom for most of the day i came home with a sense of dread you see most the children there came from middle class two parent families dad had a job some of them Even mom worked they had cars and nice houses one or two of them even had there own horse break time they had money for the tuck shop while i of course had none but the most humiliating time came when it was lunchtime i was given free school dinners but the policy at my school was that all those who paid for school dinners ate first all those who had free school dinners had to wait till the end so of course that made you stand out from the rest straight away and almost on the first day i was known as the poor kid and most of the other children looked down  there nose at me. As the first few weeks unfolded it was plain how much i stood out the other girls had cookery baskets for home economics ballet shoes for ballet money for breaks extra activities etc. i had none of these and mom just didn't have the money so of course it was not long before i started to be bullied even the teachers look down at me that would be unheard off these days some of them even made it plain that they thought i was not worth there time i was a bright child but after not to long i decided even at that young age i was better off not bothering .Time passed and i became more withdrawn and isolated and at night in the quiet of my own room i would cry and my spirit protectors would talk to me i would ask them how long would this go on and why were the other children so cruel and they would answer me back and tell me that all these experiences would help me to learn and become part of my life lessons and i would have many more to go through but in the end it would be worth it because it would help my spiritual self grow and my mortal self learn and that it turn would form me into the person i would become ...............god bless


Well i returned to school in the September of that year after missing  almost a year and things settled back down well that was until the November of that year when my elder brother caught whooping cough and yes i am sure my mom went into shock as well it spread through the house like wildfly and soon all three of us had  it my poor mom must have been at the end of her tether but again she got on with it and nursed us all how she coped i will never know it must have been so hard for her having no one to turn to no husband to tell her it would be alright to give her a cuddle or just to help out she was a strong lady she never thought she was she spent all her life thinking she was weak but she had a strength like no other i have probably only realised this as i have grown older and had children of my own if this had been me i am sure i would have cracked under the strain After three more months we were all fit and well again and life settled down i was still struggling at school partly because i had been away for so long that i found it hard to fit back in and partly because i still felt different to all the others i spent a lot of time alone and only found comfort in my spirit friends and every now and then my lovely grandad would pop in and say hello i told my mom once and she told me not to be silly it was just a dream so i decided there and then it was best to keep it to my self around this time my elder brother woke one night and come running out of his bedroom saying he had woke up and seen a young boy standing there it scared the life out of him i didn't quite understand this as i saw them all the time and to be truthful i quite liked them and never felt scared i presumed the young boy had wandered into my brothers room instead of mine.I think it was around this time my mom began to realise that i was a bit different to other children we had our own house phone fitted it was very exciting i would be sitting there with my mom and i would say mom phones going to ring the next second the phone would ring or i would say mom so and so is coming to visit us tonight my mom would say no they are Janice no ones coming tonight but sure enough that night the door would knock and the person i said was coming would be standing there one day my mom asked me how i knew all these things that were going to happen all i could say was that they would tell me my friends she never asked who my friends were but she did look at me funny from time to time .The end of my infant and junior school days were coming to an end and i was looking forward to starting a new school making new friends and perhaps being normal for once my mom god bless her wanted the best for me and decided to send me to the posh girls school next to the comp about 10 minutes walk away from where we lived  this was going to bring a whole new chapter of my life and a whole lot more problems ...........godbless .

Friday, 26 July 2013


So here we are again and i will now go back to where i left off in my last post ,Christmas came and even though money was very tight my mom did her best to make it a special one now i look back we didn't have a lot but those Christmas were some of the happiest that i remember January started with a harsh snow and our house didn't have central heating and even if he did i doubt we could have afforded to put it on one night whilst i was sleeping in my moms bed i started to feel very unwell a high fever coughing and pain all down the left side of my chest even when my mom tried to hug me and comfort me the pain was to bad even for a cuddle the next morning me my mom and baby sister sat in the doctors surgery to see the doctor i liked DR farnon he made me laugh his was an Irish man really chubby with a big red face and laughing eyes a good soul , as soon as my mom took me in to see him he know i was ill very ill he did all the checks a Doctor does and at the end he told my mom i had pleurisy and pneumonia and i was very sick ,when i got older my mom shared with me what was said that day he said i needed to be in hospital but also he knew the situation my mom was in a single mother with a young baby and a son who was at school no money with me being in hospital my mom would not cope with two small children at home no one close to help even if she could come to the hospital to see me she would not have been able to afford the bus fares there ,and there i would be in hospital very ill alone scared and grieving for my family DR Farnon decided this would do no one any good and to be truthful he didn' know if i was going to even pull through so they decided i would stop at home and he would treat me .The next thing i remember was DR Farnon wrapping his big wool coat around me picking me up and striding out the door with my mom following he announced to a packed waiting room that he was very sorry but this was a emergency and he would be back when he could he then went through the door and bungled me into his car my mom sitting next to me i remember she was crying; he pulled up outside our house which was only about a five minute walk from his surgery he brought Me in the house and carried me upstairs and placed me in moms bed he said "now maureen keep her warm give her fluid if she will take it i will be back as soon as surgery is finished with her medication until she turn the corner i will come in first thing in the morning before surgery again at lunch time and again last thing at night" he looked at me and said"don't worry darling we will get you well .  He was true to his word he was back that lunch time with my medication ,two hot water bottles and an old electric fire . I spent a long time in my moms bedroom most of it sleeping waking to see the doctor at my bed and my mom looking pale and every now and then i would see a man in blue  robes stroking my head and telling me to rest close my eyes and he would lead to the most beautiful place where i could play and run and sit on the lovely old bench by the water  i knew this was one of my special friends (spirit) and in later years i realised this was the first time i was introduced to my special place . I was ill for sick months missed school (though there was the odd visit from a teacher with a book once i had progressed to lying on the settee with a blanket ) how my mother coped with a sick child and two small children and little money i will never know but she did god bless her and DR Farnon well he kept to his word three times a day until i was better he nursed me back to health and i am sure that if it had not been for that wonderful doctor and my blue robed visitor i would not be here now and in later years i realised that the wonderful doctor had been my first earth angel ..................godbless

Thursday, 25 July 2013


So carrying on from my last post the early years that was my first if unknown experience with spirit i was born into a normal family and for those days we were classed as the horrible term lower class we lived in a two up two down little terraced house with a back yard  and an entry at the end of the entry was the washroom where you did your washing complete with a mangle (for those who are not familiar with the term mangle it was a device that sort of roller ed your washing to get the water out )next to the washroom were the toilets two to be exact and these served about 10 terraced houses all with family's in.I lived in our little house with my mom ,dad and of course my elder brother and the odd mouse ,when i was three we moved to a bigger home with three bedrooms all mod cons and a garden on a brand new council estate my mom was over the moon Things had started to go wrong even then in my young life (somethings are best left unsaid but needless to say the things that happened were not nice) and this started to effect me but i was still seeing my spirit friends and found comfort in them but by the time i went to infant school i began even at that early age to realise not everyone could see and hear spirit so of course i was confused and in turn became scared  so in my little mind the best thing i could do was completely start to ignore them after a year at infant school my little life took another knock my parents separated being so young i didn't know why or understand a few months earlier i had had a new baby sister and things seemed good now my mom cried all the time my dad was not around and i felt so lonely/ i always knew  i was different from other children my age so this made me very shy and nervous of other children when my parents separated this made me become more withdrawn and i felt very isolated .After about twelve months of my dad leaving another blow came we lost our Nanny to bowel cancer something else that became a trauma in my life but i will save that for another day anyhow back to what i was saying so we lost nanny who was a lady who gave me good advice and little pearls of wisdom even at that early age like "you have the gift and never be afraid of what you see and hear" these things never meant anything to me at the time and only came to light many years later, a year later we lost our grandad to the same disease my mom was traumatised with so much sadness and with a young baby didn't really have much time or energy for me so i became more withdrawn, it was around this time i had my next encounter with the spirit world which became a trend in my life where they would save me look after me and protect me . I was about six or seven years old my mom told me the story she said she would put us all to bed tidy up then sit down to watch some telly she said she would be sitting in the lounge when she would hear a thud she would get up to see what it was open the door and there i would be standing fast asleep but sleep walking she would take me into the lounge and lay me down on the settee where i would wake up on my own then she would pop into bed she said this carried on for a few nights she would hear footsteps from my bedroom to the stairs and then a thud she would open the door and i would be standing there asleep and she could not understand how i got down the stairs so quick so after experiencing this for a few nights she decided she would sit at the bottom of the stairs and see what was happening sure enough about 9.30pm she heard my footsteps and me get out of bed she sat there watching she said i stood at the top of the stairs then she said within a split second i jumped and her heart she swears stopped she said there was no way a small child could clear all those stairs but she said it was almost like someone was there with me picked me up in there arms and carried me down the stairs and placed me upright in a perfect standing position at the bottom she said it was like i had floated down the stairs and she knew that as i jumped someone had been there with me caught me and placed me safely at the bottom after that my mom wouldn't put me to bed she would keep me up with her let me fall asleep on the sofa and carry me to her bed when she went then sleep with her arm around me so she would sense if i moved she was always scared that i might sleepwalk jump from the top of the stairs and one day my angel might not be there to catch me .................more to follow ....... godbless `

Wednesday, 24 July 2013


hi everyone i am often asked the question when did i know i had the gift that always makes me chuckle because as much as it is a gift this is how it has been for me since i was a small child and i always thought i was strange and believe me back then did;t see it as a gift . My earliest memory of my strangeness as i used to call it is at around nine months yes you heard right nine months i have been blessed with a memory that i cant explain i remember most things from when i was a young baby which my parents have verified i digress sorry i was sitting in my pram the old fashioned type a blue silver cross pram with the big wheels my mom used to put it up against the living room wall and sit me there so she could carry on in the kitchen but could keep an eye on me (the layout of the house to long to go into) anyway my two year old brother was playing with his balloon a orange balloon i was sitting in my pram watching him when he got the balloon trapped between the wall and the wheel of the pram he then grabbed hold of the pram and tried to pull it away from the wall so he could get his balloon just a few seconds before it tipped up i felt someone grab me i watched as the pram tipped up my brother fell and landed on the rug whoever picked me sat me down next to him the the pram crashed to the ground my mom come running in and stood there stunned my brother was crying  and i was just say there years later i told my mom what i rememered and she stood there shocked i was nine months old it was a blue pram my brother did have an orange balloon but my mom had never know what had made the pram tip over and how i ended up sitting on the rug i happily filled her in on what my brother had done and how someone or something had picked me up and put me on the rug next to him she had never known what had happened and my brother was to young to tell her but she never sat me in the pram again and was pleased to know that it was my brother who had tipped it and my guardian had saved me from a nasty bang .As i grew  older i knew i was different if you like i seem to see people when other people didn't when i was a tot that was fine they were friends and i was happy to sit play and chat with them as i grew older i began to realise not everyone saw them so started to keep quite and many times would run and hide behind the settee as i didn't want to see them this was not the only thing different about me i also had what i call a sixth sense i knew when things was going to happen when the door would knock the phone would ring and when some event was going to happen i also learnt that my friends were there to look after advise me and protect me they would also let me know when someone was not genuine a lot of people have said to me that must have been wonderful but as a child i became isolated and lonely i became with drawn as i knew that not everyone appeared as they seemed . Just a little snippet of my early years more will follow ...........godbless

Sunday, 21 July 2013


 Hello everyone hope all are well i have had a funny couple of weeks here now i don't know if its anything to do with the hot weather that we are having here at the moment but i have been feeling uneasy and very down this in turn affects my spiritual state of mind when i am feeling down it sometimes means that i have been surrounding myself with people who have negativity in there life or who just have negative vibes now that i am writing this down i can see why i have been down because i have been talking to a few people who have negativity in there lives and one person in particular who has a very negative attitude, Now how do we deal with this well the easy way is to cut these negative people out of your lives but as we all know we do not live in a prefect world and sometimes this is just not possible so how do we stop other peoples negativity affecting us again never easy but the first thing we need to do is to try and fill our lives with positivity and light try and stop that negativity impacting us what a lot of people don't realise is when negative energy gets into our thought its spirals into our lives and every corner of our world negative energy breeds with every negative thought we have so it goes something like this we listen to people and all there problems we listen to there negative thoughts and there negative attitudes so what happens all of a sudden we start to feel down we think about what has gone on what they have said we feel low and before you know it you are feeling down when we are down we only see the bad things of our selves we look in the mirror and don't like what we see we think we are to fat to thin to grey to ugly that dress/top jumper skirt looks horrible we become irritable then star snapping we take it out on our loved ones and in the end they snap back that makes us feel worse about us and our loved ones also start to feel down and it all starts again or another example we come across somebody who is angry they do something to offend us or upset us and we get angry and in turn we do something to upset or offend someone else and so on and so on see how negativity breeds and grows from one person  to another  so what do we do, do we stop listening to people who have problems do we avoid everyone with a negative attitude to we lock ourselves away and never venture into the world in fear that we might be affected by negativity no of course not because we would become scared of negativity never go out be sociable or helpful or caring so again negative wins so what do we do we have to learn to change our way of thinking and acting so when we do come face to face with negativity learn to recognise it when you have spent that time in someones company and they have a lot of negativity take time out afterwards sit and relax then look for anything positive think of all the positive things in your life no matter how small think of all the things we take for granted no matter how small it could be the food we have just eaten or the smile from a child or the laughter you here in the street or the sun that is shining or the grass that is so green the memories from your child hood that day you first met your child all happy positive thoughts no matter how small then if you can when you are with these negative people every time you look at them see them with a lovely bright light around them if you come across someone who is angry don't let them make you the same but hope that they can let go of there anger and become better for it this world is not a perfect world and never will be but if we can make positive moves in our own lives it will contribute to the bigger picture if we can try and stop negativity getting to us then it has less chance of breeding onto the next person its never easy to do and still catches me out at times but there is an old saying practise makes perfect .........godbless

Tuesday, 9 July 2013


 Hi everyone well i am feeling a bit low at the moment i don't think there is any reason in particular for it maybe i am feeling a little dismayed i do like to care my hubby says i am a carer of life and now i find that my brood have all grown up and are doing there own things and to be honest i am a bit lost even though i love to see my family all doing there own things its true when people say you end up feeling a bit unwanted but as always i am trying not to let these negative thoughts impair on my life and i am trying to keep things more positive but like all of us i do find this hard at time so i have been doing some meditations today also i have been grounding . Things that get me down are the way people act sometimes like today for example i had 3 readings booked not one texted me to say they wanted to cancel there is no excuse they had my number so a simple text would have done the trick i know we are having gorgeous weather but people really do not understand what goes into doing readings they think they just turn up and i just sit down and whoosh there i am talking to spirit  its just not that simple i have to prepare for readings first i like to ground and protect myself then i like to cleanse the area i am doing readings in then i like to meditate all this has to be done before hand so people not letting me know they are not coming to me is rude i do have a life and i can be getting on with other things but now i will stop moaning and on the positive side when i was supposed to be doing reading i was in fact sitting in the garden spending rare time with my son and soaking up the beautiful sunshine so all was not lost and like i always say what will be will be those three people were obviously not meant to have communication with spirit today ,,,,,,, godbless

Monday, 8 July 2013


I  know i will be talking tonight to a lot of you that have felt this way at some point in our life what do we do when our earth plane life test us how do we cope? well i can only speak for myself and believe me i have bee tested many many times and how i handle it is now so different to how i used to now is that because i have grown older and wiser or is it because i now know there is a bigger picture to it all when i was younger i had a lot of personal conflict going on with myself as i have probably spoke about  before but as i come to terms with who i was i found that when the testing times came i could deal with them better how i hear you ask well first of all i look at the bigger picture i.e am i supposed to learn from this what am i supposed to be learning can i learn i believe we all have many many life lessons they will sometimes make us and sometimes they will break us for awhile  but what i do know is no matter what we are going through our spirits guides and higher beings will always try to help and protect us the secret is to tune into them and acknowledge they are there don't get me wrong our spiritual helpers are not there to solve every life problem we have because we are here to have these life lessons to learn from them and to grow but they will try to guide us and to comfort us when we need them, there has been many times when i have been pondering a problem worried confused and upset when we get like this trying to solve something can be hard our emotions can be all over the place so the first thing we need to do is to ground ourselves there are many ways of doing this but i find when we are all over the place doing something that takes a lot of effort just doesn't work for us  so here's a really simple way to calm and ground ourselves kick of your shoes and go for a walk on the ground outside walk found the garden just as simple as that you will be surprised how calming this can be just say please help to guide me onto the right path they will be there they will be listening and they will try to help ......godbless xx

Wednesday, 3 July 2013


 Hello everyone i hope i find you all well i have not been here much i know but that does not mean my spiritual journey has not been carrying on i have been getting more and more busy with my private readings and last night i had what i call a heavy duty night of readings the night before i had had a terrible night i had a lot of pain and hardly any sleep so on getting up yesterday morning i was not feeling my usual chirpy self  all day i thought about cancelling my night of readings for two reasons the first being i was really tired and in pain the second was it was a distance away and i would have to travel but each time i thought about it i just couldn't cancel so in the end off i set when i got there i was greeted into the house to do five readings i knew it would be a long night and in truth i was not looking forward to it but the people could not be nicer and made me feel very welcome so i set up and was ready to start the first lady came in to the room where i had set up to work as soon as she sat down my heart sank i could feel she was very guarded and what i thought was hard shelled to be able to communicate with spirit not only to they build on my energy but also the person they wish to communicate with if they have shut off or have a shield around them it is hard for spirit to do this so i must admit i sat there with a bit of a heavy hard and thought to myself this is going to be a hard night but the one thing i did know was that as soon as the lady walked in so did a spirit gentleman and he told me not to be to down hearted she was not as hard as she looked she was suffering and she was a good soul  so i started the reading confident he was going to help me i started to talk and this man was giving me quite good validation but it was not enough for this lady i could tell she wasn't convinced i was talking to him so i was asking my spirit gentleman if he would please give me some validation that would convince her he was there and sure enough he came through and gave probably one of the most best validations i have ever had as soon as i said what he had told me i saw the lady crumble and her eyes soften she knew i was talking to her man and he was there to help her i continued with the reading after i finished she left the room a whole  lighter than when she entered i then carried on with the rest of my readings and ended up having a very good night at the end of the night i was talking with the first ladies son over a cup of tea in the kitchen while i was waiting for my lift back home he said he could not thank me enough for what i had done for his mom and then he told me the story the lady had lost her husband her life partner six months before they had a very good marriage and were really close after his passing the lady couldn't cope and had sunk into a bad depression even thinking suicide the family had tried everything to help her even grief counselling but nothing had helped so that's when they had decided to call me in they had heard about me through a friend the son said to me today i was going to call your number and speak to you he said please don't take offence to this but i was going to say to you i don't care if you are real or fake but i will give you some information and tonight will you tell it to the first lady you see she needs help and we are desperate but then he said but every time i went to pick up the phone i couldn't do it i said to him i am so glad you never because firstly if you had asked me to do that i know i would have never agreed to it and secondly it most probably would have stopped me coming here tonight as i was talking to them his phone rang and after the call his wife said that was our son her grandson he was talking her home he said to his mom mom its fantastic i have my nan back we will never be able to thank you enough to say i was touched was an understatement but i cant take all the credit spirit had been there with me helping me to help him talk to his wife i know she had found peace and that is leaves me with a feeling i will never be able to explain but i know with all the events of the day and previous night i was meant to be there that night i needed to see that lady and to help and my angels guides and spirits had led me there so again i thank them for working with me for giving me the opportunity to help someone and letting me have this wonderful gift ..............godbless

Thursday, 27 June 2013


ok every one i am going to give you some advice when or if you see a medium or have a reading done remember to stay open and remember nothing has to make any sense to the reader only to you hopefully you will know i have been a natural medium for over 30 years i always say to everyone i see have no expectations because its simple what i may give you you may not expect what do i mean by that well ok let me explain and give you some examples i have been doing readings a long time and this week was no exception i had 2 ladies come together yesterday but had there readings done separately so the first lady came in and i explained as i always do what i did as soon as this lady entered she had a spirit man come into the room with her i told her who had came i said he is a man in his fifties and his name is david can you take him i asked she looked at me blank and said no ok i thought this happens sometimes but the male spirit said he knew her so again i asked her and she again said no so i can hear and see spirit is getting frustrated as am i but as a women spirit had also entered the room i decided to move on to her the lady spirit could only manage rose and was pointing to a pink rose i have outside my window i relayed back to my client the lady is saying rose does this mean anything to you again she said no byi asked again to the spirit lady can you give me some more validation but again all she could manage was rose/ rosie i asked my client again does this mean anything again she said no i am now thinking to myself oh my god i know what spirit are saying i know they are for you but nothing is coming back and i am loosing the connection anyway to cut a long story short i carried on with the reading and the spirit lady gave me more validation which my client could take but the spirit man remained in the  room the whole time when i finished the lady went out and her friend came in the male spirit was still there so i asked this lady can you take a david in his fifties straight away she said yes so i thought ok he must have been for this lady we had a very good reading and lots of validation from david and other spirit who had also come to see this lady as her reading ended she went out to her friend and said to the first lady i had seen guess who came through david i cant believe it the first lady went wow so i said to the first lady did you know
david as well she went yes he was a friend i said why didn't you say that when i asked you when you were in with me her reply was i never thought of him i thought it would only be family that come through i then said have you thought any more about rose oh yes she said that's my moms name and as i was talking to her spirit nanna roses mom i said well why didn't you take it and she said well my mom was not here so i thought it couldn't be for me i despair sometimes spirit work in very different ways and who you might expect to come through may not always be the case it may be that you have a message from spirit who you knew years ago or who you may not have been that close to you you might get a spirit who wants you to pass a message on to someone else for them spirit don't come in and give you there full name address and phone number then tell you who they want they might only give me one word like rose its you the client who has to make sense of that word not me to spirit that is validation when you accept that they are there then there energy may get stronger and help them to give more so when having a reading remember stay open stay focused and always look for the unexpected not the expected just because you want that special person to come through it may not always be the case you might get someone else you least expected xx godbless

Friday, 17 May 2013


I truly believe in times of need we are sent earth angels to help us , i know i have been helped many many times by earth angels . These are the wonderful people but for no reason will help us in our times of need some come into our life and stay for many many years some come into our life so quick then go just as quick after they have helped us and others are there for a fleeting second while they helped us in that moment the last few months i have needed and been helped by my own earth angels and i have i hope met some new ones through my work . so today i would like to thank all the earth angels out there who work just as hard as our spiritual angels  to keep us safe and help us grow a lot of them don't know they are earth angels but go about there life helping others with no expectations so again i thank them and may god bless them

Monday, 22 April 2013


now there is  a question i have been asked more than once now let me see well as you can all guess i am no spring chicken and the answer is no i am not "trained" as a medium ,now i am old school and i have to stress these are my own op ions and mine alone but when i was a mere slip of a girl i never once thought to myself when i grow up i want to become a medium when i was at school i never thought i must go to college university etc to get my degree NVQ  to become a medium and i tell you why because i never had a choice it was with me from a very young age a part of me and if i had had a choice would i have followed this path well to be truthful i cant honestly say yes, As a child i was different it was difficult to have everything going on I'm my life and to understand it to have voices feelings seeing spirits it made me different from everyone else and as a child the last thing you want is to different i was introvert and withdrawn i didn't know how to handle everything that was going on .and what was happening and it took me a lot of years to except who and what i was so would i have chose it who knows . Now who every came up with training to be a medium i really don't know who decided that this is the qualification to say you are a medium i really do not know is there one? what i do know is all the spirit i communicate with have never once said to me what is you qualifications to do this my guide has never asked to see my paper work what i do is natural to me its what i know its what i have done for many years , i don't teach what i do but i do advise when people come to me and ask me questions  as you all should know i do believe that we all can communicate with spirit if we are open enough and i believe that we can all learn how to be at one with our spiritual self  so the debate goes on in my head who became so qualified that they can now train people to become mediums and regulate and charge for it to me it boggles my mind but that's me  so when asked the question am i trained to be a medium my answer is no i am not i just am the same as i never trained to be a mother a wife a daughter a human being its just part of me part of who i am thank god ............god bless

Sunday, 21 April 2013


A lot of people ask who or what is our guide or another term guardian angel well the way i say it that we have many people in the spirit world who look after us watch over us help and guide us but we have one special guide or angel who is with us from birth who was planned to be there before we were born they are our gatekeeper the one guide who protects us looks after us and makes sure that our souls are kept safe our gatekeeper can be any higher being of the spirit world we can all tune in with this special guide and believe it or not we have probably met our spirit guide before we entered the earth plane . so why not try to sense your guide when you have some time sit in  a quiet place and close your eyes do some relaxation protection and grounding first look on the net there is loads of videos with these meditations to choose from i always recommend putting yourself in a protective bubble as well and line the outside of your bubble with a reflective material i.e silver or mirror then just sit quiet and see what you sense you will feel the energy with you you will pick up feelings senses and even may be a voice you will also feel a sense of peace when you are at one with your gatekeeper main guide give it try and see what you get we also have many other guides who are with us through our life some stay and help us with things others pop in and out when we need there specialist traits but remember no matter what happens on this mortal realm and no matter how alone you are feeling you are never alone there are always others trying to guide help and support you from another world ,,,,,,,,god bless
Hello  everyone
e i hope i find everyone well i am sorry i have not been here for a few weeks but i have not been at my best and as not to bore you all with the details i have been unwell and needed to take a break needless to say i have had to take a break from my readings to so will be starting back this week and playing catch up . my spirits never leave me and although i am taking a break if a message needs to get through they will make sure it does so i have had to deliver a couple of messages when i have least expected it . I  am always amazed how my state of health affects my work with spirit i think its because we both have to use so much energy to communicate that as soon as you are below par it becomes so much harder but i do admit that even when i am not well spirit do make me chuckle with how they try to get my attention  i have had doors opening and shutting walls banging spirit peeping from behind doors the television being switched on and off and the old favourite in my house the bathroom light going on and off so hopefully me being back at work this week this will all settle . I have felt so upset with what has been going on in our world over the past few weeks and i think being empathic it effects me so thoughts and prayers go out to Boston Texas and china to name just a few wouldn't it be so lovely if we could live in a peaceful world . Well i hope i will be lifted in the next few weeks and my mood brightens and spirit bring me some lovely and joyful messages for there loved ones for all those who are involved in the spiritual world we all knew this year was going to be a hard one and full of spiritual changes and personal changes so i think we have to grit our teeth and get on with it and i know my angels and guides have been around a lot these past few weeks and i thank them for all the signs and talking about signs i hope everyone is still looking and listening to theres remember our signs are important they guide and help us so learning to recognise them is important our guides spirits and angels will always try to guide and warn and help us with everything in our life's  i will let you all know what my weeks bring ..................

Saturday, 13 April 2013


 H i  everyone i can see from my stats that a lot of people from all over the world are looking at this blog so once again i am going to ask a big favour i would love love love some feed back good or bad so that i know at least some of you out there are finding this blog interesting so please please please will you leave me some comments and let me know what you think    thankyou so much and god bless xxxxxxxxx

spiritual journey with jan mackenzie: A LITTLE SIGN

spiritual journey with jan mackenzie: A LITTLE SIGN: Hi everyone im sorry i have not posted on here for a while but like everyone else at one point or another i am going through a little bit ...


Hi everyone im sorry i have not posted on here for a while but like everyone else at one point or another i am going through a little bit of a bad time at the moment i wont go into details but i am finding myself unsure and scared and anxious now i know everyone goes through the ups and the downs of life and i also know that no matter how many times we have the downs they never get any easier . I do call on my guides and my angels and loved ones to help me through it and i know they are standing by me and holding me up and trying to push me up top again but i also know as much as they will support me they will try not to interfere if it can be helped strange i hear you all say i thought we were supposed to call upon our loved ones and angels and even our gods in our time off need , well of course we do but i truly believe( and may i stress again this is only my own beliefs ) that we have to have the hard times and the low times for three reasons 1. TO LEARN   2. TO GROW 3.TO APPRECIATE THE GOOD TIMES WHEN WE HAVE THEM  if  we were helped and things were stopped eve
rytime we asked for help we would never grow and we would never learn and i feel our own experiences are our own life lessons and therefore we can go on and help and guide others who need it from our own experiences .Our loved ones and our guides and angels will help us In so many different ways that we might not realise that they are helping at the time they will send earth angels to guide and help  us when we most need them they will change our direction when we don't realise they will give us the support so we can get up and fight another day they are around us in the background just look for the signs as i did myself this week i know its my time to have a not so easy time at the moment so i am calling for support and i am trying to catch up on all sorts of things after a few weeks of illness i am trying to play catch up on my private readings i am trying to find the energy too do every day chores and i am trying to still be a mom wife and nanna when all i  want to do to be truthful is crawl under the duvet and stay in bed but twice this week i have been in the garden and a white feather ahas landed at my feet i have come across people who have needed my help my loved ones have visited me in my dreams and offered there support i know they are all there helping to lift me and keep me going and for all those of you who are fighting your own tough times at the moment remember this you are being heard even if you think there is no one listening  they are around you and helping you carry on even though you cant see them and if in doubt remember look for the signs they will be there ................................    godbless

Monday, 11 March 2013

Two worlds

hi hope everyone is well , i was talking to a spiritual friend of mine and we were talking about the readings i do i was saying the most frustrating thing i find when doing readings is what my clients perceive about a medium and how they work. You would be surprised how many times i have done a reading and i have said i have the name joe bloggs ( example lol) and they will go no i don't know a joe bloggs and i am thinking yes you do  because I'm hearing it then 10 minutes later they go oh could that be my brother his name is joe bloggs well yes derrr the trouble is when people come to me for a reading they have an idea that of course the reading will be all about them and that i myself am able to talk to spirit as if they are sitting next me its all a miss concept of what readings are about  when i have a client i try and explain to them that the energy that spirit need to use just to be able to get a message to me for them is vast even though i am lucky enough to sometimes  see spirit does not mean that i can hear them as clear as day for example i might say to one of my clients i can see your loved one standing next to you by that i mean i can see them standing there but i cannot hear them as if they were standing there there is always  a vast void between me and spirit they is my world and spirit world 2 worlds that sometimes meet but even though spirit will appear they are still in spirit world appearing in our world so communication can be very hard it takes a lot of energy for spirit to communicate or appear from spirit world . So when i am talking to spirit i do not have or hear a full conversation that would be impossible neither side has that much energy to achieve that messages come in all guises i may be shown pictures i may be took to places i may pick up on a smell and i also hear words for example spirit my say to me jean and i will saying i am being told rose they do not say my name is  jean her name is jean she knows jean i will just have been told jean it takes so much energy for spirit to say one word let alone a sentence , i do understand that its hard for people to understand and they think i can talk to spirit as if i was talking to them and i wish it was that easy spirit will try and help as much as they can to communicate there message whether it will be with pictures words places or gestures i always ask them to give me good validation and i am lucky that they are kind enough to do that but after many years of doing readings i have found that nine times out of ten  all they want to say is we are ok we are happy and we love you  and i also think nine times out of ten that's all we want to hear so remember if you go to a medium she is just a receiver for a message trying to get to you she and spirit have to work very hard to get that message to you they have to both work between two worlds ............ god bless

Saturday, 23 February 2013

i know its hard to imagine for some but jackie newcombs poem is so right even though most cant see them or hear them or feel our loved ones trust me when i say that they are with us everyday they see our pain and just want to comfort us they see our tears and want to wipe them away for us they so much want us to know they are ok and in a far better place where the glow of peace surrounds them i wish i could share my gift with each and everyone of you i wish i could show you all your lovely loved ones and i wish all of you could see hear and communicate with spirit as i do but i am sure that its within each and everyone of us all it takes is belief and a open heart for you to see and hear everything  it truly is wonderful ..... god bless xx






........ IM STILL HERE

Friday, 8 February 2013


Today is a very sad day little baby charlie beards lost his fight for life for those of you who have read my blog you would have seen my posts about  how charlie was a little 2 year old boy who has fought a long hard battle most of his little life against cancer today a little earth angel has become a little spirit angel he is now pain free at peace and free to play jump and run with all the other spirit angels a child that touched so many people and has left an imprint on there hearts . I am asking all you lovely people to send healing and prayers to charlies mommy daddy family and loved ones through charlie and cords 4 life so many others have been helped god bless you charlie little angel xxxxxx

Thursday, 7 February 2013

Do i sh

Well today i was out shopping doing my normal life i was standing outside a supermarket waiting for my hubby to park a car when i overheard a conversation between to ladies the one lady asked the other how her mother was doing the other lady replied that she was doing ok but was finding it hard as she had been married for 45 years and was missing him as she said this a man appeared right at the side of me and said tell her i am ok tell her jerry is ok i turned and looked at him and shrugged my shoulders i think he understood because he smiled at me and vanished  you see i really could not go up to this women someone i had never met and give her this message why i can hear you asking well first of all say for some strange reason this man was not for her and i had got it wrong would she think i had been listening to her conversation and was being cruel and then also say it was for her she was getting on with her everyday life and a random stranger walks up and says you dad is ok jerry is ok how would she react to that then thirdly i suppose its my own fear that stops me is she going to rant and rave be nasty shout that i am a weirdo all these things go through my mind when i do readings for people i know that they have chose to come and see me i am not forcing my spirituality on to them and they want to hear the messages there loved ones have for them so as much as i would love to pass on all the messages lovely spirit want me to no matter where i am sometimes i just cant i have to look at the whole picture am i right or am i wrong who knows i only ever try to do what i feel is right .......godbless

Wednesday, 6 February 2013

Getting back

Well after a break which i do quite often i am back to my reading i have had a few this week and i must say spirit have been very kind to me and gave me good validations for there loved  ones . I do find that after i have stopped working for a few weeks i am always nervous about starting again when i am not working spirit of course still come round me and if i try to switch off they will do things to grab my attention like hiding things i need and when i ask for them to return them they do turn up in the weirdest places of course i don't mind i know it is there way of trying to say hello we are still here you know .My new year has started off quite hectic and i am sort of playing catch up with myself but that is what life throws at us sometimes and we have to adjust to that like i always say i am a medium but also i am a person a mom a grandmom and a wife its just a a small part of who i am and sometimes it just has to take a small part of my other busy life   and i know that spirit understand that we always have to have a balance  in everything we do . Well hopefully things will settle down and i can get back to telling you all about what i have learnt as i have grown on my spiritual journey .......... god bless

Saturday, 2 February 2013


i am glad you have found someone who has helped you spiritually there are many fakes as you put it but you will be led to the right one i am glad you have found that person ......... god bless

Wednesday, 23 January 2013

who's spiritual

Hi everybody I'm often asked the questions who's spiritual or how do you know if you are spiritual mmmmmm let me see well by now you should know my beliefs and that i believe we all have the spiritual core within us but i suppose that some rather than others find that they feel it a lot deeper being spiritual can mean so many things to so many people it depends what they believe in who there gods are what they religion is being or feeling spiritual i think its a very personal thing . My own definition on being spiritual for me means many things and shapes me as a person i believe i myself feel that being spiritual and being in touch with my own spirituality helps me cope with everyday life and every day problems it helps me grow as a person it helps me with understanding of others it helps me stay calm and relaxed it also helps me to try and find the good in most things and understand there might be reasons later on why i cant see the good at that time . Being spiritual is not all about being a medium in fact being a medium is a very small part of my spirituality it is a gift i have been blessed with and I'm am very happy to have it but its not the be all in my life i will sometimes be a working medium for months on end then i will take a break and not work as a medium for the same length of time i do not and have never made it my career in life and it does not become the main thing in my life but it is part of me and who i am the same as all the ailments of have in my life( believe me i have so many i wont bore you all with the details ) but again even though my ill health at times is part of my life it doesn't become my life i am more than that . I believe spirituality becomes who you are and i always refer to it like a tree growing we start of as a small sap and as we learn and feed from our spirituality we grow and have many branches coming of us but they all lead back to the roots of what we are, we are always learning and we are always growing and like the trees that feed and help our earth i hope my spiritual self feeds and helps others ...........god bless

Saturday, 19 January 2013

Following your pat

Well hello everyone i have had a funny old couple of weeks and now I'm left with a conflicting  thoughts and decisions and i have to make them soon .There are points in our life when we come to crossroads and different paths and we find ourselves at the junction not sure which path to take do we go the safe path where we can continue on our long steady walk through life where we feel safe and have no fears or do we go down the windy path where we know there are going to be a lot of twists and turns where we have fear of what might happen where we are sometimes opening ourselves up to maybe pain and hurt even danger its a hard decisions to make a whole part of  you so wants to walk no run down that straight safe path yet the other part of you wants to go down the windy path as you know sometimes we have to face the fears and even maybe the danger as you will always be wandering what ifs all the time , so here i go off down the windy path i don't know where it is going to lead me or where i will end up but in my heart i know its where i am meant to go its my path whether it be to learn another life lesson or whether it will be good or bad but one thing i do know it will be part of my journey so i am asking all my spiritual guides all my angels or my loved ones in spirit world to keep me protected and safe to help me on this path and to guide me to the right place to keep me safe from all things evil and bad to help me continue the fight of goodness ......... godbless

Sunday, 13 January 2013

The sad loss

This week has seen the loss of someone i knew and for those closest to her i have to watch the pain and grief they are going through and i know nothing i say or do can ease that grief i often say and truly believe it is harder for those loved ones here on earth than for the loved ones that have pasted ,its even harder for those who lose there moms because for a lot of us our moms are not only our moms but our best friends to, they leave a huge gap in our lives that no matter what we know it will never be filled again .I  really do not know why some people leave our earth earlier than what we think they should why these good people seem to suffer pain and illness making there last days on earth uncomfortable and hard to see and i don't know why some seem to suffer more than others what i do know well what i believe is as soon as they leave this mortal earth there pain has eased sometimes even before they go they will have been healed when people say they looked and sounded better than they had done in months just before they died that's because the healing process had already begun i believe that they see there loved ones who have come to fetch them and they lose the fear and find a peace but i do know from experience its always our loved ones who have passed who are worried about us here left on earth there messages are most the time please tell them i am ok and no longer have any pain nor am i unhappy they always want there loved ones here to move on and let them go because they are content and happy to be where they are no matter what the circumstances was when they left .I myself have been totally disabled with grief  from loosing my loved ones and i know no matter what anyone said to me that grief wouldn't ease so of course its hard for me to watch people i know and love suffer so much pain in there grief but i know they will heal and laugh again and they will do this with the help and the love and the guidance from there loved ones that have passed and even though they cant see them or touch them they will be there  by there sides wrapping there arms around them brushing away the tears and loving them like they always did when they were here ........... Dedicated to the lovely lady we lost this week .......... god bless

Tuesday, 8 January 2013


hi everyone something happened today that was very sad and through my life into turmoil through events of sadness to others it left me with a choice i had to face that i had been avoiding for many years in the end events led me to a situation where i couldn't avoid it any longer so i was left with a choice face my fears show forgiveness set myself free from a heart of pain or walk away and carry on running from my fears not forgiving and being bitter and holding on to pain that had been there far to long i decided to go for option 1 i don't know if i was right or if i will be proven wrong but what i do know is that i am me and no matter what i might say i always have to forgive first i have no choice because its the way i am made so only time will tell but i am no longer scared i may be rambling and I'm sorry but in the name of the lady who passed today i will give it a go xxxx

Saturday, 5 January 2013

 W ell hi everyone my new start hasn't been the best with one thing and another but i am trying my best not to dwell on the negative but to keep going forward and think positive i have not been well for about a month now what with the flu and then a sickness bug and once again another flu so when this happens i tend not to do any spiritual work because my strength is not there so i am taking an enforced break that's not to say that spirit are still not around the other day whist i was drying my hair a spirit was playing peek a boo which i did find quite amusing also i have had a little negative spirit around me i have been able to sense them and they do come when you are most vunerable i.e feeling ill and low so i have had to up my protection  not that i ever let it down . I am not quite sure about the year 2013 yet but as always i am sure it will be a year of ups and downs and how we all cope with that we are yet to see i know we are always learning so it will be interesting to see what lessons we have to learn this year I'm hoping that in the next few weeks i can get back to telling my story and sharing my experiences back on here i hope you will still all pop in and have a read .......... god bless